What Am I Looking For?

for the first time in my life, i truly wanted to sleep last night. just sleep and never wake up. i was longing for peace. longing for silence. longing for contentedness. i kept feeling like something is missing in life. something that i really really want. something i need.

this thought kept me up for hours. but i still don't have the answers. what is it that i am looking for? if i don't know this, how can i try to look for it?

i thought that i could sleep it off. but alas, here i am, wide awake in the morning trying to still figure it out. what is my mind trying to tell me?

what am i looking for?