What Am I Looking For?

for the first time in my life, i truly wanted to sleep last night. just sleep and never wake up. i was longing for peace. longing for silence. longing for contentedness. i kept feeling like something is missing in life. something that i really really want. something i need.

this thought kept me up for hours. but i still don't have the answers. what is it that i am looking for? if i don't know this, how can i try to look for it?

i thought that i could sleep it off. but alas, here i am, wide awake in the morning trying to still figure it out. what is my mind trying to tell me?

what am i looking for?

A Day Of Firsts...

today [no wait, it's technically yesterday because it was before 12 0' clock], a series of firsts has happened leaving me all freaked out.

1. my dad initiated on making everyone go to moodhu.

2. i played volleyball [or any sport at all] with my dad.

3. my burugaa decided to go off my head while i was in moodhu. [this reminds of bulhaa because i think this has happened to her like twice or something.]

4. the second i finished the whole business of getting the burugaa back on my head, the first thing it thought was, this needs to go on my blog.

:/ right?

i know for people reading this, this might not sound a tad bit of unusual or freaky but for anyone who knows me well will know what i am saying. these things don't happen to me. at all.

and below is the first image that came up when i googled "a day of firsts"

now, how creepy is this? i mean, c'mon, [if i take that saying literally] i'd hate it if my burugaa decides to run off my head everytime i go to moodhu!

Once Upon A Time...

Once upon a time... I used to blog!

it's been ages since i last blogged. even more than a year i guess. i blame it all on twitter!

when i started twitter, not many of my friends were there then. but when all of a sudden twitter became so popular, every blogger friend of mine forgot blogging and moved onto tweeting! i guess i don't blame them coz thats what happened to me too.

i think i have to give credit to Ashraf. i saw him blog today and i just couldn't help but remember the thrill blogging used to give me back then.

so, i'm here again [this time hopefully i won't stop] and i'm here to stay!

i hereby welcome me back to the blogosphere and make it my new year's resolution to keeping blogging all year long!

WHAT Made Him Do It Anyways?

there's this girl who sits next to me in office, Athee. we were talking random stuff the other day when out of nowhere she said this.. [i have obviously translated it to English according to my knowledge :P] "i wonder why Ibrahim Nasir fought so much as to freed ourselves from the Brits."

then when i gave it a thought, i thought the same too. why on earth would he want to give us freedom coz obviously this ain't what poeple call "freedom". i dont anyways. how can this be freedom when we keep dancing like others do? well yeah, we have some of our own stuff, but who remembers them anymore? 

i know he wouldn't have wanted our country to be in the situation it is in today, when he fought so hard for the freedom. with the crime rate up high in the skies and the economy well below the ground, i hardly call ourselves free. as Athee said, wouldn't we have been more civilized and our country so much advanced in tech. stuff if we had stayed under the British Govt.? it's not like they were enslaving us or something, right? [or were they? as far as i know, they weren't]. 

also, if we were under them, Maumoon wouldn't obviously have all those oppportunities to do what he did..now would he?[lol] i wonder what made Nasir do it. i seriously do.

photo source: google :)

PS. i know i haven't updated in a loooong time now. what to do.. just haven't had the time and been in the mood. 

Happi Burday Mom!!

me lurrrves u mom.. !

hope u have a blast!